Pain in the....back?

So...woke up about a week ago with pain so bad that I could hardly move. My first thought was that it was my kidneys again. Turns out after tests, that it is not my kidneys, but some sort of back pain. It is unbearable. I haven't been able to work in over a week and I am so annoyed to have to be laying in bed all day!

I went back to the doctor today and he took x rays, gave me more medicine and a steroid shot, and is setting me up with an MRI sometime this week. He thinks my job might have put strain on my back. It involves a lot of lifting, bending, standing, and picking up kids and it may not be something I can physically do.

However, not sure what we are going to do if I lose this job. I will have no health insurance and David and I will both be without an income! Yikes! Please pray for us, I am scared, but I know God is in control! love you all!

Nurse Appreciation Week

So this week is Nurse Appreciation week. It is very nice that this day exists, nurses work very very hard with very little appreciation. Because basically we take care of cranky, sick people. It can be a very frustrating job, but it can also be very rewarding.

I cannot believe it has almost been a year since I have graduated, wow, time flies. And let me just say nursing school is nothing like nursing. Not even close. Nursing school is a breed of it's own, yuck.

So the hospital gift to us was these really cool bags (three of them) for groceries. They are really big and insulated to keep hot foods hot and cold food cold. I really love them, it will be great shopping with them. They also gave us a porcelin (sp?) travel coffee cup. Both the bags and the cup have a Children's logo on them which is the best part. I am so proud to work for a hospital that does so many great things for children.

Happy Nurse Week everyone! Go hug a nurse!

Wednesdays are hard!

So here it, my longest day of the week, Wednesday. The day begins at 5:00 am when my alarm goes off...45 min later I leave for work. After working until 3:15 I come and hang out at my parents house until Dave gets done with worship practice. We then eat dinner, then he has choir practice. After that we head to Epoch to teach small groups...usually we don't get done until 8:30 or after. Then I FINALLY get to go home, take a shower, and get things ready for the next day.

On non-Wednesdays I am in bed my 8 or 8:30 (because I get up so stinking early) but on Wednesdays it is much later. Which pretty much means Thursdays are hard. Ugh, don't get me wrong I love the girls in my group and I am so happy to have them, but man, I am exhausted by the end of the day. I almost dread Wednesdays now because it feels like a marathon. Something is going to have to give, but I do not want to give up my group. Maybe I'll just have to hit Starbucks before church for that extra jolt...

Just a job...

So, I am having a hard time at work. I just dread it, it's so hard. I know, I know, I am new and it will get better. That is what everyone says, but not sure it will. It is so different than "real nursing". I loved floor nursing in practicum, but this is just crazy. I keep thinking it's because it is just new and different, but what if I never like it?

To tell you the truth. I just want to be a stay at home wife. I want to be able to cook, clean, and have time to work on stuff that I want. Our apartment is a mess, I never feel like cooking, and I am miserable all the time. Is this normal? There is just no way right now that I can quit, we need the money.

My husband says to look at this as "just a job". To let the criticism and stress roll off my back and to just go for the paycheck. As sad as it is, I am just going to have to take his advice. I care too much. I care that I am miserable, that I feel like an idiot, and that the kids I see are really sick...ughh, not been a good day!